So Snydy and I got visiting a cemetery today. We spent allot of time exchanging history lessons. well, that got me to thinking. As we walked some of the graves we saw some world war two graves and at one point snydy discussed the Nazi swastika. We never learned from the nazi genocide. Rwanda, Darfur...same thing. I don't find it an accident that these things have poped up in places where there really isn't any power. It challenges us to act and we haven't. Thats bad juju. On that same note I don't find it an accident that a hurricane hit New Orleans on the eve of the republican convention. It wasn't so much our failure when Katrina hit but the reasons and attitudes behind it. I've read so many stories about our failure in rebuilding as well.These failures stem from the same attitudes. I guess to me thats a sign of a higher power at work. A call for change in my mind. As my thoughts rambled tonight I really got to thinking about the way life handles people who have things like bi-polar,schizophrenia, etc. In the old days we were housed in places like Belmont and treated horribly.We had no rights, no freedom and safety. People spent their entires lives in these hell holes.This went on for decades. They broke up the state hospital system and shifted everything to group homes. These places aren't much better. I have heard of the government conducting experiments on the people there. It has even been said that some of our medical "breakthroughs" happened because of it. Still to me really,really bad juju. I've talked with mom often about being too open about having bi-polar. It is definitely a reaction to what my family went through. Hiding it, being shameful ,about it etc.Even though the minute I tell someone I'm bi-polar I know I face an uphill battle gaining their trust,and acceptance.In the worst case they attempt to manipulate it. Usually those are the people that can't see the strength I get from being different.I was listening to two ladies talking the other day and their conversation went like this " So I said that too her and I saw she just didn't understand." "shes crazy but I couldn't tell her that because I didn't want to break the code." I just sat there in the waiting room thinking F' You and F' your code lady. Peace in crease-C